Until early this year, I still crying every time I look onto your picture. I can't keep my poker face just to make sure that I can survive until this day without single thing remembering about you. The selfish you are make me crying without hesitation. I keep remember every time SHINee member with you always smiling even you keep smile until the end your life. Why, why you should take you own life just because you can co-operate with this world anymore.
I felt frustrate. I can't image how this world I gonna be through without you. Almost 10 years, you smile give me thousand reason to survive until today. I keep you into my heart until the end. But I cannot make sure that I can love SHINee like before. You are the reason SHINee can still survive until this day.
At that time I'm looking at the news about your memorial day, I keep holding my tears. I just can't be believe you that day was not in this world anymore. I am dreaming? No. I trying fool my self keep thinking that's not you. I can't believe its you. You should not be there.
This moment, I holding my tears like crazy girl. I cant keep holding.
Thanks for everything.
